AHHHHHHHHH loves…..it’s been a hot minute…. Well way longer than a hot minute…..5 months to be exact….. YIKES…. I dont like saying that….it doesnt feel good but it was needed. I have to be honest with y’all. This last year has been hard: I lost Grams (My number one supporter, sounding wall, and someone who really knew), Colby needed surgery, and then we lost both my grandpa and grandma back to back….all three in one year…. BUT that wasn't all of it….those are just extra details that made life harder….. The real issue was ME…… I need/needed work…..Let’s start at the beginning…… 5 months ago I posted a video post on “Special and the R-Word.” From that post, I had a large number of amazing comments or support and reflection, but I also received a DM that stated, “You just need to get over it!”
…...Now let’s be real…. I put my life out on the internet. I write about things. I video things… I share and share and share but that’s not my whole life…… When I read that comment, something inside me broke… it had been coming for a while. It wasnt the only straw, but it was the final straw…and what’s broken must be fixed….easier said than done-right?.... But it’s the journey…..My journey….. That has led me to some amazing amazing personal growth books and podcasts- to help me be the best partner, mother and friend that I can be…..and in return, Im truly the most happy Ive ever been...you can hear it in my words…. Click the image to watch the video!!!!!
Now….. I'm still in the midst of things…I’m still growing, I’m still learning, and I’M STILL an imperfect HUMAN!!!!! I share this with all of you because my friends, my besties, my PIC, and all who make me a good human, shared this with me… these are tried and true things Ive found from friends, and they have been amazingly helpful in my growth…… things I wanted to share with you….. This list is my personal arsenal for growth….it has helped me self reflect, create amazing friendships and become a better version of myself!!!
1. Girl Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis. Holy COW just go get this book- Library, Audio, Target….. Wherever you are...this book is life changing….
2. Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman. I should have read this 20 years ago…. I wish I could/would have…. Im definitely going to make my boys read it…… YUP, I am…..
3. “Rise Together” Podcast by Rachel Hollis and Dave Hollis.....can you tell Im a Hollis fan....- THIS IS MY FAVORITE…. MY MOST GROWTH, MY LISTEN TO REPEATEDLY….. If you’re in a relationship, this is something I highly recommend!!!!
4. The Secret Enneagram by Christopher Heuertz. I took this test…Click HERE for the test I took. There are tons out there..but this is the one I took. I just wanted to see what I was… I hadn't bought into the whole idea YET….. After 14 pages of questions, I had my results… that’s where the true learning began…. I scored a “2- The Helper.” Well what in the Sam Hill does that mean…..so I read and I read and I read about “2’s” more and more and more-it was me…. Really me… the good, the bad, the hidden...it was me…..I heard about the Ennagram Test on the Rise Together Podcast…..I decided to Google the book and bought it off Amazon. I figured this could only help right…. While waiting for the book, I decided to look at the other types…. I type-casted Travis right away… I figured the best way to see how we communicate and etc was to know his number. Two Day shipping- thanks to prime- and I had the book…. What is the first thing I read, “DON’T TYPECAST YOUR PARTNER”- not those exact words but similar… yup that’s me. HERE I AM….. Just start singing “Issues” by Julia Michaels…..
The rest is yet to come….. I’m still learning...I’m still growing…. My grams always said 40 was when she learned happy… every year after just got better…. I’m 25 plus 10 years experience, and I want to be her… I want to be happy and content…. She was right, you know, when I started learning about me, and truly understanding myself...I was able to communicate what I needed to my partner, friends, and family…...And in return, I have grown…. I say this scripture daily…….